Since it’s now 2014 I guess that means this is the year I turn 30. Which seems ridiculous, because aren’t I still 18?
I don’t really give a shit about getting older, I’m not one of those people who’s scared of aging or whatever. It’s not like my ‘youth’ was so amazing that I don’t want to leave it behind. There’s plenty that I’m happy to leave behind with the deteriorating memory of age, since alcohol blackouts were never my thing and consequently the shitty memories have a habit of performing capoeira on my self-confidence.
I just don’t feel I know what the hell I’m doing, and I figured I would by the time I was 30. At least a little. I mean, there is a perpetual pile of clothes on my floor, purely for the reason that when I take them off at the end of the day, I can’t decide whether they need to be washed or whether I can get away with wearing them again. So I throw them on the floor, because apparently that’s a logical half-way point of the indecision.
BUT, I did voluntarily order a pizza with only vegetables on it the other day, so maybe there’s hope for adulthood yet.
I can only conclude that either I’ll figure everything out in the next 3 months, or you never really figure it out and you just have to become comfortable with not really knowing what you’re doing.
That’s kind of terrifying and kind of liberating.
My dashboard is full of the BEST stuff right now (read: Poehler). I’ve obviously been following some excellent new people recently (to add to the excellent people I was already following, obviously).
So in summary…carry on.
I hate/love OTH so much. The parts I love, fucking destroy me. The parts I hate give me so much rage.
So far in my rewatch I’m up to s5, and at least twice an episode I shout “DICK!” to Lucas. Seriously, what a dick. I know it should be water under the bridge because of the perspective that comes with knowing how it all turns out, but apparently fangirl rage isn’t logical like that (who knew, right?).
Can I just rant for a second…because let’s keep in mind that when he proposed they were 19..NINETEEN! And everything she said was SO smart and empowered, about them both needing to follow their dreams otherwise they’d end up resentful, and all she wanted was to wait one more year. And because she won’t abadon her dreams to be a 19 year old wife he ends the whole thing?
Like I said…DICK.
I really shouldn’t be trying to make sense of OTH. I know this. And yet, my Lucas rage burns strong. I wonder if there are any other fandoms in which you are passionate about your OTP and yet also think one of them is a tool who doesn’t deserve the other one.